10 minutes

Ten minutes. Doesn't seem long. Unless something happens very quickly, not much can happen. But with God, time is different. Someone told me today to just take thing ten minutes at a time. A day is too much right now. Just ten minutes.Every ten minutes I consciously remind myself that God is in control. I remind myself that he does love me. I remind myself that God is ever present in my life. I remind myself, every ten minutes, that He is same yesterday, today and forevermore. I remind my self that Cameron's death was not my fault. I remind my self that He is in heaven and at peace, feeling no pain. I remind myself that my Gran (Marie) is with him. I remind myself that Grandma (Mamie) is no longer in pain. I remind myself that it is okay to cry and grieve and that grief has no set time. Every ten minutes, I take a deep breath and thank God I still have life, which means I still have purpose. Every ten minutes, I ask for forgiveness. Every ten minutes I ask for clarity. Every ten minutes I am given is a gift from God.