What I am learning

Because I am sooo overwhelmed with emotion, I decided to blog to sort it out. Cameron has been gone almost 10 months....wow. I never thought I would be able to write that without tears. But I just did. I miss my son. But each day I see his purpose in my life more and more. I am learning to be content in whatever state I am in. I am learning not to allow other people feelings toward me dictate how I feel about me. I am learning that just because people don't understand this disease called lupus, doesn't mean it isn't real and it doesn't mean I don't still hurt. Let's stay there for just a minute. I know people don't know as much about it as I do, but if someone close to you is diagnosed, RESEARCH. Idiots. I am trying to be more patient with those that are not as intelligent as me. Umm I am trying to not be as condescending when talking to those people. I love the Lord. I love the calling on my life and I am committing to it.